tired of feeling lonely
Gonna try something a little different, and possibly drastic here. I'm just gonna be 100% honest. Don't get me wrong, I've never lied when posting. But this time I'm just gonna lay it all out there. I've been feeling lonely for a while. I'm divorced. It's been a few years now, and it was hard and a bit painful, but it was amicable. I mean there was no ill will or fighting or anything. We both agreed that as much as it hurt, it was time to let go. I didn't want to, but she was unhappy. I haven't had a serious relationship since then. Sometimes I'm fine, but sometimes I get really lonely. I miss having someone to cuddle up on the couch and watch shows with or to sleep cuddled up next to. The other night I had a dream that I was falling asleep cuddled up next to someone, only to wake up with my arm out, but nobody there. I'm tired of feeling this way. Part of me wants a relationship, but I'm also not sure I'm in the right place or frame of mind for one. I do however want to feel less alone. I want to find someone that I can spend time with. Hang out, watch , TV shows, go do things, cuddle, make out, sleep next to each other. As far as having sex... I don't know. I mean yeah, the idea always sounds nice. But the truth is, I have a hard time keeping it most of the time (see, told you I was gonna be honest). Not sure if it's a or issue. Either way, it makes it kinda difficult. I'm sure some of you have seen my posts before. Yes, I have posted on a bit before. But not because I'm a player, or because I'm trying to hook up with new women all the time. It's because I never really have much luck here. I mean now and then I meet someone, but it's few and far between. I'd like to meet someone for the aforementioned activities. Hopefully someone whom I get along and have stuff in common with. I mean if there is nothing we enjoy doing together, and there is no attraction or chemistry, then what's the point? But I'm not picky, I like all of women. The biggest qualities I like in a woman though are honesty, intelligence, and nerdiness. As for a little bit more about me, I'm 32 years old, no , kind of shy, but intelligent, witty, funny, fairly charming, cute (so I've been told), kind, warm, caring, a gentleman, and generally all around enjoyable to hang out with. I don't do any , I don't smoke, I hardly ever drink. I love going for walks and hikes. Especially in the snow. I wish we got more around here. I have two kitties, one of which would likely join us for cuddling if we do it at my place. I don't drive, but as long as you don't live hours away, I have no problem taking the bus to you. I'm a bit of a computer geek. I build my own computers and help my friends with theirs. I'd like to go back to to get a network security certificate, and then maybe go on to get a full computer science degree with an emphasis on programing. Even if I don't get the degree, I at least want to learn how to program because I'd like to be able to program android phone . I enjoy all the usual geek things. Video , , TV, reading, board , card , role playing , of all sorts really, lol.I build my own computers and help my friends with theirs. I'd like to go back to to get a network security certificate, and then maybe go on to get a full computer science degree with an emphasis on programing. Even if I don't get the degree, I at least want to learn how to program because I'd like to be able to program android phone . As for what I'm looking for, I'd love to find someone that I click with and can continue to hang out and get together with. Something that's a little bit more than fwb, but still not quite a serious relationship. Something with a few strings, but not with all of them. I'm not really looking for a serious relationship at the moment, but I'm not against it happening if we have a connection. I just want to feel less alone. If it matters, I've been told that I'm a good kisser, a world class cuddler, and well hung. But I'm also smart enough to know that much all men are told that at one point or another, lol. So if you've read this far, you haven't written me off as a total loser, and are maybe a little intrigued, let me know. I'd very much like to hear from you. Please include a and tell me a little bit about yourself in your first . Also if you could change the subject line to your favorite color that would be great. That way I know your real. The number of bots and on here can be rather disheartening at times. Anyway, I've laid myself out there. Hopefully I will catch your eye and hear back from you soon.