I need a protector
Hi. I am looking for a female to be in a relationship with.
I am a special needs person living alone. I cannot stay where I am living for much longer and while I can go anywhere and do anything, the biggest thing I want in my life is a good girl to share it with.
I am unable to drive, and a lot of things I need would be better off with a vehicle. This isnt essential of course but as I see it now, I need a place I can feel safe and one option is to have an (RV) that I can live in and have a sort of studio in. Im artistic but the best word to describe me in my life right now is incongruous.
I need someone that is understanding, and willing to try to understand me. Ive heard a lot of people feel this way. In school I was a wiz at English and writing. But Ive never been able to communicate worth a hill of beans. Ironic, innit?
Right now I feel trapped by the conditions society has imposed on me, which it acknowledges to be unlawful but cares not to give me relief to impositions created in effort to protect the many over the few, though the isolated minority of that few are completely innocent. I cant go out and do things freely. I cant stay home and do things freely either as I live in unusual conditions, and have been majorly depressed lately.
I need someone to protect me! At least a driver. Thats all that would be fair to ask, I feel, so I can avoid having to deal with people who willfully misunderstand me. I want to have only one person in my life that I talk with. To everyone else, it would help me greatly if they got the idea that I had taken a vow of silence.
The efforts people usually take to get to know someone are painful to me. Asking questions, people seem like they seek to form judgments. I dont want to be judged, but apparently that is the fire one must pass through to achieve love. I dont think that is absolute, but thats the impression that I get.
My life is monotonous and I feel a great mental anguish and suffering. People who have been my friends become affronted when I speak freely, so I must either edit myself or have no friends. I want one person who will be on my side, and not be offended when I speak, because they know I am on their side too.
I am not a bad person, but my life is not a joy. It is not happy. It is not interesting. I feel incomplete. I do not feel safe.
I am a special needs person living alone. I dont want to be alone anymore; I hope to find the one that would be the fulfillment of my special need.